The day I turned 40 was supposed to be the "beginning of life" I was told. What a crock! I still feel the same as I did the day before. Don't get me wrong, my body tells me I'm not 20 anymore when I decide not to take the elevator but the stairs. As a man it's a ego burner, but I can suck it up and find more ego! What I did find at turning 40 was a reflection of all the bad decisions I made as a youth. And I have to say, I made my share.
Does someone turn on a switch at 40 to show you every glaring mistake made by you? I think so. After being 40 for a year, it has been the most reflective. My head hurts from so much thinking. It's like the "bad" past is haunting me. I know I shouldn't have drank that 5th of liquor after midnight knowing my work shift started at 5am, but hey, friends showed up. I paid for that one, I mean a lot! Or things like blowing my entire paycheck instead of putting it back for rainy days, still feeling this one.
There are so many examples of what I should have done and didn't, I could go on for days. My wife could probably tell you about each one! Well, it's time for me to turn the switch off, get a grip, move forward and do what I should have earlier in my life. And I'm going to blog about it.
I'll update this every couple of days sharing what I'm doing, want to do, and hope to do. I'm new to this so for all of you who want to ride, please be patient. Peace!
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